strangemelodies

Fall is here! HORRAH!

Yucky Icky Sticky Summer is OVAH!

As usual, a lot of things have happened since I last updated.

I got my ears pierced =O yes. That's right. Ears are pierced. Finally decided to go to the mall one day and do it.

I got new glasses! My wonderfully caring boyfriend bought me glasses. I had my old ones for about 6 years and they were JACKED UP. Always crooked on my face. Horribly horrible. We looked at frames practically a whole Saturday. That same Saturday we  hung out with his mom. Ended up finding frames the next day. We both agreed they were awesome.

My car is gone. I fucked it up. Cause I'm stupid like that. I fucked up the motor. It is towed away. My parents sold it. It is no longer here. I am sad. It sucks. I went so long without a car and without being able to drive myself around and  coming and going whenever I want.  But now that I know what its like, life SUCKS without it.  Its horrible having to ask my mom permission to borrow the car and getting shit about when I'll be back. Ugh.

My family is buying a house! YAY. I've hated living here. We've lived here since I was like, thirteen or something but I've NEVER gotten used to it. I HATE it here. My brother and dad having been putting in offers for a house for a few months now and someone finally accepted an offer they made on a house. Blake was over one day hanging out when my parents and my bro were on their way out the door. I promptly asked them were the heck they were going and they told me they were gonna go look at the house again. I hadn't seen it so me and Blake tagged along. I loved it. Can't wait to move in.

I turned 22 last week! My birthday landed on The Office and Sunny season premieres this year so we had a tiny birthday/office/sunny premiere party at Chelseas.  In attendance, Chels, Adam, Blake and myself. Chels made us linguine with some tomato sauce and yummy pesto, per my request. DELICIUSO! OH, I also got a birthday cupcake! OH OH,  Chels made me super cute strawberry earrings!

On the 12th of this month Blake and me went to traders village for the Indian pow wow. Blake bought a cool jacket and got me super cute earrings.

This past weekend was Noah's 2nd birthday. Blake picked me up after he got off of work Saturday morning and we hung out at his place until the birthday celebrations. He had his party at Goin Apes. A kids bouncy dream. They had a whole buncha bounce houses. It was cool.

Blake went on a crazy reading rampage Sunday and Monday. I don't know how he did it. He literally spent two days ALL day reading at the library. Finished reading a book and started on a whole new one AND finished it. All for school, of course. I'd be a little concerned if he was just going to the library reading non stop all day just for the hell of it lol. I mean, there are hobbies but then there's just crazy.

I started piano lessons this past Sunday! Kavon has so awesomely offered to share his knowledge of music. A lot of things are already starting to make sense. The things he taught me Sunday are already clicking and I'm starting to 'get it'. I'm so excited to learn more. I'll start to be of more use to the two bands I'm in and to the other people who have approached me about collaborating.

Dashboard is coming with New Found Glory. The Sounds are coming. El Perro Del Mar is coming. Daniel Tosh, Mike Birbiglia, Jim Gaffigan. Why do these shows have to cost so much money? And more importantly, why don't I have any?

Fall always brings my FAVORITEST acts to town. Fall always brings back my favorite shows with brand new episodes and introduces me to awesome new ones. Fall always brings incredible weather that makes it worth going outside.

I need Fall to bring me a job.

Dream journals. Talked about it with Blake. We both wanna start one. I just don't know if I want to keep a paper journal or an online one. We shall see...

spent these past several unjournaled weeks doing the usual. either at home doing nothing or  hanging out with blake ♥

babysitting the past few weeks. which i completely do not enjoy. i just don't enjoy babysitting kids i'm related to...my nieces and nephews have always felt more like little brothers and sisters..so with that comes the "gah!!!" and them getting on my nerves to an extreme level. i love them..but i prefer not to babysit them everyday for several weeks.

hung out with isabel, christine and chelsea this past monday.

friday night went to see lalagray and the fox and the bird at the cavern with blake. after the show we came back to my place and slept. we've been doing alot of that lately when we get together lol hmm..i think i'm the one thats initiated the sleep these past few times. man, i feel lame. like, extremely.

i had seen lalagray with chelsea at opening bell south side the thursday before this this past week. her music is quite lovely. i enjoy it.

had practice in carrolton yesterday with tonite tonite. got there around 3..not sure when practice ended. rode up there with rusbel..after practice we went back to pedros to unload his drums then i went to target...went home and got ready to go to arlington to see blake.

got to see his incredibly cutie newborn niece, eden.


nothing else stands out right now.

hm? hm.

since last update?

saw the season finale of lost at the angelika with chelsea and rachel which was pretty damn cool.

helped blake move out of his dorm.

wow, have i really not updated since then? geezus...

shot a gun for the first time o_o ...with blakestah and his parents.

umz.

drove up to oklahoma city on a saturday with blake. that morning i woke up with a shitty sore throat. stayed sick for most of the following week.

oh yeah. blakes not a giant ball of adorable scruff anymore!  still adorable, of course. just not as hairy :)

umm. i dunno. can't think of much else.

been hanging out with blake.

we made dinner last night at his place and watched tv. twas a very  nice night.

uh..oh we saw star trek ooonnnn....saturday.

alls i can remember for now.

oh, cheese and crackers.

oh, OH...

i babysat last week. jordan, edgar and reagan. took them to the park for a couple of those days. cici's..mcdonalds...blah blah blah. practiced on thursday with academy grove. started oh sure sign which is turning out BRILLIANTLY with piano added. i mean, seriously. it sounds magical. this whole thing with kelsey is working out great...

...meh.

went over to chelseas today for dinner. chels made thai food and we had strawberry shortcake! also watched lost.  i was gonna head home after lost and catch a showing of x-men. i told chelsea that. she asked "alone!?" ...."umm...yeah"..."NO! we'll just go to a movie here."

so we did. the angelika it was.

just now got home.

i needed to get out of the house as soon as possible. my mom was driving me insane. she crosses far too many lines far too many times.

i don't want to be home right now. but i don't want to be out either.

it feels humid in my room. gross.

three to tango on netflix....

...why not?

THEY'RE CALLED BOUNDARIES.

FUCKING ADHERE TO THEM.

This is so FUCKING RIDICULOUS.


STOP LOOKING THROUGH MY SHIT.

I'M TWENTY ONE FUCKING YEARS OLD.

I AM NOT A CHILD ANYMORE.

YOU LOOKING THROUGH MY SHIT AND HIDING SHIT FROM ME IS NO LONGER A GREY AREA OF CROSSING A LINE. ITS A FUCKING BIG NO!

STOP TRYING TO PLAY STUPID FUCKING MIND GAMES.


WHAT THE SHIT.

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...and there's nothing else to do. so why not update, right?

i'm already forgetting last week! dang it!

i know friday i went to blakes dorm..that's as far back as i can remember!

saturday at around nine saw monsters vs aliens with blake in Tru3D...which was uh...

...ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! we were sooo the little kids in the theater. we kept switching rows testing out which seats were best for the optimal 3D viewing experience.

sunday, monday, tuesday...a lot of nothing.

oh, i've been on netflix watch instantly ALOT for the past three days.

mostly documentaries.

the indie sex series was pretty damn good. its about sex in films. the last episode titled "taboos" is not available though. which sucks. i'll have to keep an eye out on the ifc channel to see if they're airing again anytime soon.

shows or countdowns that reference movies can be frustrating though. they reference ALOT  of movies. and in indie sex they referenced alot of really fucked up looking movies that i've never seen that i'm now dying to watch. i'm not easily shocked...so i'm dying to be offended lol show me something that'll make me go "OMG..NO! that's TOO much!"


the beautiful truth and the human face were pretty interesting as well.

i have the movie as good as it gets on pause right now. never seen it before. its a'lookin good.

a slight headache is setting in.

got off the phone with rusbel not too long ago. twas cinco de mayo. i should have gone to pedro's restaurant to watch them perform. its a mexican holiday and i didn't do ANYTHING...sad. boooooo.

wooooooo....


.....shoop doo bee doop.

i have now decided to follow.

although i'm sure this will all end in tears...again.

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i have a new camera! =P

very VERY happy about that. blake went with me on friday to frys to try and find the camera i wanted. i already had one picked out. it was just a matter of finding it cheaper somewhere else. didn't find it at frys. i had seen it on the walmart site...at the actual store it was like...ten dollars more expensive, which was fine...but they didn't have it in the color i wanted. we then headed to best buy...didn't like the price. but blake asked about price matching and yessssss...they did. i ended up getting the red one. not the one that i had originally wanted but i have grown to love it.

after the camera purchase funness we headed to uta. they were having a drive in movie in one of their parking lots...twilight. i had already seen it and didn't like it all that much. blake hadn't seen it yet and whether it was a good movie or not, it was a nice way to kill a late afternoon.


we then headed back to his dorm room and chilled. went home later that night.

Saturday was a day full of muuusic!

had tonite tonite practice at three. ended really damn early...like at four somethin. but i stuck around for a little while longer for some academy grove practice with rusbel for a bit. headed home a little bit before five thirty. blake arrived at 6:30 and then we headed to the door(previously known at the gypsy tear room/ballroom). the door has done a really nice job with that place. looks alot better, actually. we were there to see person l and mae but were pleasantly suprised at the two opening bands, tokyo and barcelona. they were pretty freakin good. mae was selling 3D glasses...they had a screen behind them and for the last two songs the images were gonna be well, in 3D. twas pretty cool. we left there sometime after 11 to head to the cavern for Romp Almightys CD release party. The O's were also playing. We were both so damn tired so we left after The O's played one song...thankfully, they played my favorite song first...so i was satisfied. oh yeah, and i of course bought my copy of the romp CD.

stopped at taco bell, headed back to my  place..chilled there for a bit. then blake headed back to his dorm a bit later.




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i feel nauseous.

and i haven't gone to sleep yet.

and i don't think i'm going to.

and i plan to get a haircut this morning.

and i'm thinking short choppy bangs.

and hair dyed black.

and getting my streaks redone.


i wants a new look...and i wants it NOWz.

*bites nails*






i bought super cute, super cheap dress at wal-mart...ITS REVERSIBLE! =o

then i bought this super cute, super light weight, not so super low cut black sweater at target to go over it.

believe me, it actually looks pretty cute together.

i just need it to at least get a little breezy outside so i won't like a weirdo.

GET BREEZY!!!

I'MMMMM BREEZY!

you can't say you're breezy! that totally negates the breezy!

Joey Francis Tribbiani. Friends.

Michael Gary Scott. The Office.



okay, i need to stop.


*goes to corner and holds knees*

last thursday-

stage adaptation of a couple twilight zone episodes at the dallas hub theater with blake! twas pretty cool. the way they did the intro was pretty neato. this was like, hardcore local theater. loved it. i loved blake loving it more than anything though. he's a major twilight zone fan. crazy how i came across the showing though. the thursday before that me and rus practiced some more with kelsey...from there we went to balcony club for a little bit. once we were there this high/drunk chick started talking to us..then she focused in on me. she kept mentioning two theaters that were in deep ellum that i had NEVER heard of. a couple of days later i looked them up and went through all the shows and thats when i saw the twilight zone thang. so thank you drunk girl..miss judith perkins..for helping me make my blakstah a very happy person.

friday-

i'm pretty sure i went to blakes dorm..yeah, i'm pretty sure. efrain and michael were here this weekend so..yeah, thats what happened.

saturday-

my moms 51st b-day get together and my bros and sisinlaw new house in garland. dragged blake along with me. we had to go pick up the cake. oh yeah and I HATE DRIVING IN DALLAS. thank goodness blake lives in arlington.

sunday-

fort worth arts festivial with blake. oh yeah...a couple of weeks before we went to the deep ellum arts festival...both were..eh. both times were really nice days outside though. and you do spot pretty cool art work here and there. after the arts festival we headed to blakes parents house. we then went to the park with his parents, stephanie, nick, and their cutie baby noah.  much fun. lots, actually. after the park we went to cafe acapulco? i'm pretty sure. had particularly good converstation with blakes dad. ended the day with blake in his dorm.

monday-

hung out with chelsea, rachel, and adam at chelsea's apartment. ummz...ended up spending the night. i hadn't had a drink in...months. and honestly, yeah..i felt like getting a little drunk. not WASTED...but, just a little tipsy. bugged blake on the phone for about an hour....then like at four in the morning i  made chelsea walk to 7eleven with me. drove home at 8something in the morn.


I GOT MY TAX REFUND!

i need to buy a camera now. i want to take/post more pictures :(

nothing in particular..don't think.

got into a minor car accident monday. guh. never going to that  walmart ever again.

went to blakes dorm last night. afterwards i decided to stop at the taco bell near my house. when i got to the street where the taco bell is located, crazy ghetto ass hispanic bitches decided it would be appropriate to roll down their window and yell, "STUPID FUCKING BITCH!" while saying other things i didn't catch and giving me the finger. i just stared back giving them a "what? you're stupid" expression. you see, before i turned right unto the street i looked the other way to see if anyone was coming. i saw a car, but it was REALLY far away. so, i decided it would be okay to go. the thing is, those crazy bitches were speeding to the fucking extreme. so, i got in their way. so thats when they decided to honk their horn at me numerous amount of times and continue to do what i described. they stayed at my side for a few seconds too long then after their completely uncalled for reaction they sped off.  i had more of a right to yell at them than they had to yell at me. but you see, i'm not a ghetto ass crazy  hispanic bitch.  i'm just a crazy hispanic. stupid trashy whores. seriously. *rolls eyes* they fucking give a bad name to the hispanic community and thats what pisses me the fuck off the most. i have too much to say on that particular subject. its just not worth my time.

oh! okay. easter. almost forgot.

got up early to spend the early part of the afternoon with blake and his family. stopped at a few stores before meeting blake at his dorm. i wanted to get noah something(blakes  nephew) but i was having no luck. he's an organic food eating kiddo so i wanted to stop at a health food store to get him some organic candy...but all that health food stores where closed that day. so i decided to get him a plush. all easter related toys...SUCK. they're really bad quality. so i just got him a cute frog plush and an easter egg with an elmo toy inside which he ended up really liking...freakin adorable kid.  so anyways. go to blakes dorm, headed to his parents, ate, then stephanie (blakes sis) taught us how to play a new card game...which was pretty enjoyable. which is damn suprising for me cause..i just have a thing about card games. they  make me really uneasy. after all that jaazzzz we all went outside to watch noah hunt for easter eggs.

can't really remember what time we left..around four? i dunno. we then headed to blakes dorm and chilled there for a little bit. blake went into work for a couple of hours so i headed to garland to my bros new house for more easter festivites. kids had their easter egg hunt then the adults had their egg hunt lol

lord, it had been awhile since we had done that. real hollow eggs filled with confetti(and/or flour which we didn't do this year..it was just confetti this time) that are hidden, found, then a massive chase to crack on eachothers heads. it ALWAYS ends with someone bringing out a real egg and initiating massive mayhem. it was fun. my family is nuts. i left around 8ish to meet blake back at my house.

pretty fun easter.

annnnnd

that's all i can remember for now.

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I've been laying in bed for the past hour...under my covers, lights off, tv off...TIRED. EXHAUSTED. SLEEPY.

i get so tired i can't sleeeep.

^this^ is quite the train of bull.

so dying, huh? does it scare the shit out of you? me. not so much. well, i think everyone has some fear. no matter what they say. but for me its not anything that really freaks me out. cause really, its gonna happen.  whether you like it or not. so might as well think of it...in a um...fun sort of way.

dying a horrible death was the only thing that really scared me about the whole thing. i used to think..dying in my sleep would be just the best thing ever. but now i'm thinking that dying a horrible painful death would be well, kinda incredible. its like you'd be going through the ULTIMATE human experience before you go out. one last big awesome BANG before you cease to exist. getting into some horrendous freak accident that rips your limps from your body and you end up laying there disfigured bleeding to death.

dying in your sleep? psh, BORING. you wouldn't even be aware. and that SUCKS. you assume you have tomorrow to wake up to but you don't. ignorance is not bliss, my friends. dying some horrible freak accident way at least makes a good story for your loved ones to tell and probably gives you at least a few seconds, if not minutes, to realize...'okay, this sucks...so much for those concert tickets that i bought..damn, i really wanted to see no doubt.."


thats not really taking into consideration other, more likely ways i would die...like um, some horrible disease. if i found out i had something that i was more than likely going to die from...that would be the time to do anything and everything...completely stupid extreme sport that would likely end in death. you know, skip the safety precautions and such. cause then that would give me an opportunity to die the ultimate awesome way.

but i had started this off by saying you might as well think of it in a fun sort of way...and a painful death was my fun sort of way. didn't really intend to go into the more typical likely ways of dying. shouldn't have even brought it up..cause this was just meant to be an entry  fantasizing about the way i'd like to go out.

i don't know. what the fuck am i talking about?

geezus, i'm morbid/incredibly stupid.

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afi dallas starts up today. missing another year. god damn. angering. oh well.


wow. there really isn't much to talk about.  life is getting pretty frustrating. not having a job is really stressing me out.

we (academy grove) had our first practice with kelsey last friday. it went well. he seemed to really get into it. seeing blake most days which equals happiness.

updating everyday. must. i hate not remembering whats happened day to day. updating helps my memory out a ton. even if i don't mention a particular thing that happened that day, i'll still remember it if i happened to update on something else that happened...um, that same day. did that make sense? geez. dunno.

thursssdaaaay. tv joyness.

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i don't even wanna say anything lol every time i mention something wonderful on here its seems to get slapped down very quickly afterwards. one reason why i usually never update when things are going amazingly. i probably already said too much just with that.

only reason i'm even updating right is cause i feel a bit shitty.

huge downside of being crazy about someone? unreasonable emotional craziness. seriously, wtf. keyword seems to be crazy here.

i got about three hours of sleep last night...took about a two and a half hour nap around 8. so tiredness or just plain crazy? o_o

i subbed today...woops dee boooooo. twas easy enough. just really frakin boring.

i miss him.

my head hurts.

todays been not so great.

geez...patheticness? um, yeah.

relying on someone else for your happiness? not good. but its difficult when that person make you so damn happy...so when they're not around...major downer.

umsss...yeah, thats it.

boop.

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i chose veggie skallops over going out tonight.

good call, i say.